Control to me is the ability transfer my unique inner soul into the external world. The natural human state lives within a lack of control. We can’t control the actions of others, we can’t control the passage of time, and most painfully, we can’t control whether we’re the object of love or rejection.
Through drawing, I re-discover my sense of control because I have the power to meticulously select my colors, and choose the saturation and technique behind every stroke, and accumulate everything into an intricately crafted image. From start to finish, this drawing is my creation, and mine alone. There are no unexpected surprises, everything is drawn with intention. Not a stroke out of line, not a single petal too big or small, and not a speck of pigment outside its intended bounds. Everything exists as it should, in my little world of a lettersized page.
One might ask, how does my interpretation of this lotus flower differ from any other artist’s take on the same subject?
Even with a hundred different artists drawing the exact same image, they never recreate it the same way. They capture it. They represent it. I can see the details of every single stroke in a drawing that makes it unique to its creator. Parallel to the concept that no two snowflakes are exactly alike, each drawing carries a unique and controlled expression of our souls onto an impressionable blank page.